Pat Bullock Reveals Whirlwind Relationship with Jeremy Pfarr
In a new memoir, Bullock, 30, reveals they had a whirlwind three-month-long affair after Manzanita 2011. Both he and Pfarr were 24 at the time, but he describes himself having been an 'innocent 24' while Pfarr was 'confident'.
‘It was so intense,’ said Bullock. ‘It was Pfarr and Bullock to the guys, but Jeremy and Patrick to each other.’
Bullock has previously kept mum about whether anything romantic happened between them. But going through the ‘angst-ridden’ diaries he kept at the time has jogged his memory.
‘IT WAS PFARR AND BULLOCK TO THE GUYS, AND JEREMY AND PATRICK TO EACH OTHER.’
In excerpts from his forthcoming book that have already emerged, he recounts how they spent their first night together after a birthday party for mutual friend Kevin Cach. Despite Bullock's outwardly cocksure persona, he felt intimidated by Pfarr, who had already filled out as a man.
But, he reveals, he became ‘wine-sodden’ at the party and afterwards Pfarr offered to drive him home. Although Pfarr was dating his college sweetheart at the time, they ended up in bed. And the next morning, Bullock found himself racked with self-doubt.
‘I looked over at Jeremy. A hero’s face — a few strands of hair fell over his noble, slightly furrowed brow,’ he writes. ‘How could you ask such a shining specimen of a man to be satisfied with the likes of me?’
He adds: ‘I was so inexperienced, but I trusted something about him. He was kind.’ He described the affair with Pfarr as ‘a very long one-night stand’, adding: ‘I was relieved when it ended. I didn’t approve of myself. He didn’t abuse the situation — Jeremy wouldn’t have hurt me, especially once he understood that I was inexperienced. It seemed to take its natural course.’
‘I trusted something about him. He was kind.’
Bullock added: ‘Jeremy's very private, but I think I waited an appropriate amount of time. How much longer could I wait? We were so young at 24, but I trusted him. I didn’t say anything to anybody for years but it’s not like anyone’s deeply affected by it any more.’
According to diary entries quoted in his memoir, he tried ‘relentlessly’ to make Pfarr love him and indulged in reveries in which he hinted at marriage, giving him a 'gold band with the word inscribed 'Pfullock'' — a coupling of their names.
However, as the winter ended, so did the affair. They remain friends, and Pfarr is now happily engaged to his fiancée.
